Sorry, but I’m really bummed out about my performance in a sort of neighborhood recital that was held about 5 hours ago this evening. I was in charge of it, which makes it even worse because I totally bombed. I sucked! I made so many mistakes, I was so nervous, I looked so stupid - I don’t know why I even bother, anymore. I can’t stand it! What kills me the most is that I know this piece backwards and forwards and could probably play it with my eyes closed if there wasn’t an audience. I should probably throw in the towel as far playing in public goes. It used to be easier, but as I get older, it gets worse. I hate it! I’m putting this up (temporarily) to see if any of you have ever had such a bad performance as this, or if you can offer anything that will help to get over the aggravation and despair I am left with now. Seriously, I am so distressed. Right now, I hate playing the piano.